feels like running away to a secluded place. like really really far away. where no one knows me at all. where no one would judge me at all. and where no one would care whtever i do. i wanna go far far away. as far as i can go. then i wanna scream as loud as i can. trying to let go evrything tht's in my heart, my mind and my soul. i wish i could be free from my current situation. it sucks being in this current emotion. oh hell yeah it really is sucks !
feels like crying evry single day now. and yeah, im easily getting moody, down and such. dont be suprised if i am not like before. dont be suprised if im not as loud as before. and dont be suprised if i like to be a loner. just dont be suprised. i had changed in some ways. probably 40% of me had changed. or maybe more. i myself dont know how and what and why it happened.
it's easy to forgive, but the fact tht the pains are still here, it's hard for me to forget and let go. wish someone is here to help me. wish someone can help me cool down. wish someone could lift up my burdens even a bit. wish someone is here to ease up my pains. i do wish tht someone would come and give a shoulder for me to lean and rely on. i really need someone to help me. coz im afraid i couldnt stand it anymore. im afraid i couldnt hold it anymore. and im afraid i mite collapse anytime soon.
